Thoughtless by S.C.Stephens
Publication date: June 11th, 2010
Published by: Feedbooks
Genre: College, Contemporary, Romance
For almost two years now, Kiera's boyfriend, Denny, has been everything she's ever wanted: loving, tender and endlessly devoted to her. When they head off to a new city to start their lives together, Denny at his dream job and Kiera at a top-notch university, everything seems perfect. Then an unforeseen obligation forces the happy couple apart.
Feeling lonely, confused, and in need of comfort, Kiera turns to an unexpected source – a local rock star named Kellan Kyle. At first, he's purely a friend that she can lean on, but as her loneliness grows, so does their relationship. And then one night everything changes...and none of them will ever be the same.
I just can't believe I made it through this book, I really can't. It was wrong, so wrong. And not the "Oh it feels so good" wrong, the "I want to gouge my eyes out" wrong. I wanted to trust in it, though, and because I'm extremely naive, I stuck with it, thinking that it can't possibly be that bad, that anytime now it's gonna get better. Let me tell you now, don't be as naive as me, because it doesn't get better. Not at all.
To be honest, I kinda struggled with it from the start. Not so much with the story and the characters, that came later, but with its tormentingly slow pace. We just had to know every little move Kiera made, every little step, it felt like watching a movie in slow motion. There was a small oasis somewhere in the middle, which was unfortunately overshadowed by all the crap that was going on around it.
And that brings us to the story and the people in it. Story is this: a girl named Kiera and her boyfriend named Denny move in with said boyfriend's best friend, Kellan, who happens to be a very hot singer in a band and Kiera falls head over heels with him and they start an affair. I won't go into details about what happens in case you want to read it (I beg of you, don't!) but I will tell you this: I have never hated a girl in a book as much as I hated Kiera. I mean I haaaated her! I loathed her. Everything that I despise in a person, was Kiera personified. She was someone I could not relate to at all, someone who I could not invest in, I could not give a crap about what happened to her or who she ended up with because in my mind she deserved to be completely alone. Or rather, she kinda deserved Kellan because in my eyes, he too was a spineless coward.
The girl was so selfish and manipulative, it was almost a crime. She said it herself at one point, how good it'd be if she could keep it going on with both guys. Without her boyfriend knowing, of course. That poor guy changed his whole life because of her and treated her like she was his everything and what did she do? She had sex with his best friend while her boyfriend was sleeping right across the hall! Wait, it gets better! She then went to her boyfriend's room and had sex with him because, get this, she felt guilty.
Ah, and they say romance is dead!
I mean, I could go on and on about the ridiculously hurtful stuff she did to both guys, we could be here all day. And what ended up happening? Both guys stroking her hair and telling her everything's gonna be OK and please don't cry and don't be sorry. Seriously?? Nuh uh. Unacceptable. She didn't pay ANY consequences for her actions whatsoever and not only that but when it came to the nitty gritty and couldn't make a decision between the two guys offering stupid excuses, her boyfriend made it oh so easy for her by making it for her, practically giving her a get-out-of-jail-free card. Why? Because she is Keira and they both loved her so much that they forgave her for screwing around both of them. I'm sorry but I just can't fathom that, it made me angry as hell. Kiera for me was an immature, spoiled brat who always craved validation, which everyone seemed so eager to give her, and she was still never satisfied.
That being said, I must admit that I get it. Not her, not at all. The story, up until one point. I get that even though you're in a relationship you can meet someone else and fall in love. Yes, of course, that can happen. I have no objection to that. You end it with the person you are with at the moment and get together with the new guy. What you don't do is screw around like nothing is wrong because you're in love with both of them so it doesn't really matters, right? Your intentions are pure. Don't kid yourself. You're a slut. Plain and simple. Even if she truly loved both guys which I highly doubt Kiera did, she had to ultimately choose one of them. Yes, it's hard and it will hurt whoever is being dumbed, but screwing the other guy is hurting him even more. If you're a girl and you're reading this imagine if your boyfriend did this to you. "Hey babe, um, so, I slept with a girl the other night. But no worries. I'm in love with her". Would you go "Oh OK then. Good on you. That doesn't bother me in the least" ? Somehow I doubt it! Ultimately what bothered me more was that Kiera was completely fake, a person that doesn't and can't exist in reality, whom you cannot connect with in any way, and who eventually ruins the the whole book. I mean, she couldn't connect with two guys who adored her, how can the reader possibly connect with her, feel for her?
Don't let me get started on Kellan and his smoldering blue eyes, and sexy lopsided grin. Ugh! What a best friend he was, uh? And he supposedly owed Denny a lot, which of course he repaid by screwing the living hell out of Denny's girlfriend fist chance he got.
I can't even.
The writing was pretty bad. I don't know if it had to do with the ridiculous length of the book (550 freaking pages of torture!) but it was very repetitive and I don't think I've seen the word "blush" and "tear" written so many times in a book. All everybody did was blush or cry, I'm telling you.
The only small tiny redeeming quality in Thoughtless was the steaming hot make out/ sex scenes which in every other context would shine. In this one, they were just good.
Unless you wanna get really really really frustrated and angry, don't touch this book with a ten-foot pole. Consider yourselves warned.